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Feb 27, 2010
First of all, it was SUPPOSED to be a big day for me. Cause we (me and Hau) have an appointment with a property agent to have a look into our potential fully furnished apartment that has not one, but TWO queen-sized beds in it, being red and blue which was our main attraction cause it looks so good to sleep on it besides the fact that it's situated in an ideal place. Woke up early, walked 30minutes down the hill to the train station. Walked ALL the way to Ghuzney street for about 15 minutes. And right at the foot of the building to the apartment, we received a call from the agent to CANCEL the appointment. We're like,
WHAT THE F??
So, basically we got conned TWICE already. The first was that she made an appointment with us for another apartment(which was supposed to be the one we're looking at today and then....) but later in the evening, she called to say the property is no longer available. So she said that the appointment would still be on but another apartment.
Damn you. Biatch.
GAWD. We were so pissed of course! FFK two times already!!
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HMMPFHHH.
So, the lady said she would call on monday or tuesday to fix another appointment.
She better remeber it.
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After that depressing call, we decided to get a good breakfast.
Walking down the street, imagining what we would be eating if we really stayed around Ghuznee.
So, randomly, walked into this restaurant called All Day Breakfast.
It's wee bit cheaper here. But still on the expensive side.
Oh well, we need some cheering up.
I had.. Bacons and banana waffle. Hau had the Mixed Grill that comes with THREE eggs, 2 large slices of bacon, some mushrooms, and two hashbrowns.
Yummy yummy yummy, there's lovely food in my tummy XD
Downed all the food with fresh orange juice!
*Munch Munch Munch, Gulp*
Awesome :)
But if I eat like this everyday, even though it's supposedly to be blissful but I think having bacons everyday would kill me eventually.
I miss having my Milo and toast bread mornings. =(
When I get my apartment, I WILLLLLL have that for breakfast!!!
Neways, later we just walked everywhere, cause we had too much time to spend till 3pm to meet up with Uncle and his family in Uni.
Passed by the beach. Which was crowded with people today cause there was a kayak competition, apparently it's New Zealand against Australia.
Lovely atmosphere, great weather and great crowd.
Oh I really love this place so much =)
After that we took the cable car to Uni, spent some time in the library Facebooking till 3pm.
Then met up with the family and we had an unexpected tour around the popular sites in Wellington. Uncle brought us to the top of Mount Victoria and the Botanic Garden. I had some amazing views and fresh air and wind blowing in my hair! In different directions.
We went to other suburbs in Wellington as well. Stopped into a few supermarkets that sells Chinese, Japanese, Indonesian, and Korean goods.
Which made me so HIGH cause I saw santan, Maggi seasonings, curry powder, and alot of stuff that could help me curb my cravings for Malaysian food.
DOUBLE awesome! =DDD
So, later on we headed home and nothing much.
Had spaghetti for dinner.
And that's it for today.
*Burp* Smells like the dinner I just had. =)
Chiao.
Feb 24, 2010
Hardest Walk In My Life. Physically. Apartment Hunting is Killing Me
0 comments Posted by Ern T. at 3:13 PMDear people who read my blog,
I'm currently staying in my aunt's friend's place called Tawa on Kilkelly Street.
It's very peaceful here but the downside of it is that it's TOO isolated.
Dammit. The story starts here.
Well, today is apartment hunting day. So me and my cousin, Hau woke up pretty early, like 8-ish?
Anyway, the uncle who hosted us took us to the train station by car (remember this) and hopped on to Wellington Central.
We started by going to Mount Victoria cause there's a show house at 12.30pm. I wanted to take a bus there but TAN TZE HAU had wanted to walk. So, we walked and walked and walked for about 30minutes up and downhill. Which was quite tiring you know. But anyway, after walking so effing FAR, we didn't even stepped into the show house cause it looked pretty bad from the outside and it's too far from the campus.
So, what the hell, we walked for nothing.
Then, we walked back to... Manner's Street for another 25 minutes to meet some random guy from Church who said he would bring us around. We ended up going to Victoria Uni in Kelburn which is also another 20minutes walk, but mind you, it's uphill. Imagine walking uphill till you're panting and can even sweat in a weather condition of Cameron Highlands. THATS how tiring that walk was!!! And it's gonna be an everyday thing, oh God, what did I put myself into.
So in campus, we made some more searches on the net looking for 2 bedroom apartments... I have an appointment at 11am and 12pm. HOPEFULLY it's some place suitable so I can STOP walking just for awhile. I'll be so grateful.
GAWD, the desperation sounds so absurd.
Okay, if you think that walk was bad enough, try this.
At like, 5.30pm we were on the train back to Tawa. Got off the train at maybe 5.15 or less??
We had no car so could only walk.
Reached the house we're staying at...................... A fucking 6.20pm.
I'm sorry for the language but it's fucking hell lots of energy to walk from the train station, and HIKE (I wouldn't call it walking) all the way up through the hills to the house.
Like 43 degrees steep? For 20minutes???? 20minutes sounds little IF it's on flat surface but hell, if it's 43 degrees AND 20 minutes, it's damn hard.
How can I not have a tighter butt and toner legs already??? I'm curious!!
So, me and Hau were cursing under our breaths " Fuck these hills Fuck these hills" repeatedly. It was really BAD. SO bad.
It's not an overstatement, it's the truth or maybe even an understatement!
SHIT.
Anyway, other than the really effing walks (reducing vulgarness cause I'm cooled off abit now) New Zealand is really nice. The people are so friendly.
We walk with maps all around the city and the kiwis will come up to us and ask if we need any help for directions.
While one of our rest stops in the city, there's a dude who brought his electric guitar and amplifier and just rocked on playing his thing like nobody's business. Kinda cool wei! =)
And on the way back to the house, the nearby neighbours who were guys and sun bathing (sounds odd cause it's normally hot chicks, LOL) while drinking beer said hello even made jokes to us.
Nice people really.
In Malaysia, no such thing. Everywhere it's like, I-don't-care-what-or-who-you-are-get-out-of-my-way.
It's nice for a change.
But I have another appointment tomorrow in the city which means I 99% have to go through the same ordeal that I had today.
Oh damn............................................................................................................................
I can't imagine the blisters upon blisters I'm gonna get tomorrow.
Labels: New Zealand Walk Stories
Day3 in Wellington
Today I saw something that made me know that there's something I have to forget. Let go.
No matter how much it meant to me in the past, or even still, now.
It's the right thing, the best thing, but also the worst thing.
If I keep holding on, it will make me bleed to death.
Even on my death bed, I wouldn't be able to get over what was bothering me.
So, the choice is clear, but what will be my decision?
Feb 23, 2010
I feel like a traveller. Basically I am right now, since I have no place to stay.
Day2 in Wellington. Still staying in hotels cause I haven’t got any confirmation on accommodation from the University. AND I have yet to check my emails, or go on facebook to update myself, or even blog. So, all of these are offline blogging ok?
Rights, the flight to New Zealand almost killed me. I’m serious. It’s SO looong. Like, Effing Long.
Cause I departed KLIA at 4.30pm and reached New Zealand like, 9am (Malaysia time) the next day? That’s one hell of a flight I tell you. I had 2 transits, Singpore and the other in Sydney, thats why it took so long to get to New Zealand.
Anyway, stories about the wind in Wellington are TRUE. Veryfied and testified. It’s Summer here, The sun shines really brightly but the wind is so strong, the air is so cool. You'll see many people walking in shorts and slippers everywhere even though it actually feels really cold. Or they were just pretending that it’s not cold cause this is the warmest season of the year you can get and is the only chance to show more skin rather than being bundled up under 4 layers of clothing. Or maybe they’re just used to this. Humans, are insanely adaptable creatures.
Food, everywhere in Wellington feels like it’s TGIF’s or Chilli’s. But better. The portions are SO big and they look heavenly (not sure about the taste though cause so far I’ve only been to the nice restaurants). I had egg benedict for brunch today. That had too much bacon on it (imagine that). And some carrot cake that has yogurt sauce and a lot of whipped cream with it. Very good cake. Dinner was some Taiwanese restaurant called “CHA” and had braised beef noodles and a little of tiramisu cake, AGAIN with a lot of whipped cream. You’ll go nuts here, the cream is so good and fresh. It’s so sinful that I don’t feel guilty at all after eating it. The bad side about food is that it’s expensive. Like, at least NZD$10 per plate of noodles??? That’s crazy man, I’m not even doing currency conversion and I feel like I’m eating in Papa Rich or Little Taiwan everytime everyday.
I need to cook my own meals. Dammit. I don’t mind cooking, just that the thought of food being so expensive is so saddening!!
*sobs*
Well, anyways.
Wellington is small, so people usually walk. A lot. I’ve never seen a traffic jam here. And the traffic lights go green about 10seconds each time. THATS, how few there are the number of cars here. I walked for 4 hours yesterday, around Wellington, to cafes, shops and to the beach (that’s right people, the beach is WALKING distance) which is so beautiful. Had a huge ice cream, that tastes better than any Baskin Robbins, and then more walking. Like I said before, Wellington people still wear shorts and slippers even though it’s freakong cold, so, there are many people around red like lobsters, burnt from the sun. It’s not surprising cause it really is very sunny, but you can’t feel the heat at all. Maybe that explains why people don’t mind brisk walking 20minutes just for a meal.
I feel like I’m a tourist here instead of a student. Cause I can’t believe how relaxed this place is. I saw people lying on the grass just to enjoy the sun. People LIVE life here. That is to say that Malaysians are pretty much suckers all these while.
There are lots of weird and interesting people.
People with skateboards.
People with guitars singing/performing along the walks.
People with green/ pink hair.
People with dreadlocks.
People with weird clothes.
And at night, while walking back to my hotel, there’s almost nobody around. Not even a slightest person or vehicle. It’s quite creepy cause it’s so quiet. Shops close very early, maybe 5pm something? And that includes many restaurants as well. During weekends too. It’s really weird cause as compared to Subang, everyone would still be in Asia Cafe, or Mac D’s or Starbucks until at least 1am. I would be in college at 11pm.
HA.
Life is just so different here.
Gosh. It’s really over whelming. Only time can wear off this sense of excitement which I hope not too soon...
But to come back to why this post is called Wellington Legs, it’s because almost everyone here has nice or at least decent looking legs. Even fat people. No kidding! It’s because of all the walking everyday everywhere!! So, people here are not really obese or overweight. They may have bulging tummys but damn, they still have decent looking legs.
So, if I were to say that you have Wellington Legs, I would mean that you have, rather nice legs.
Lame much.
Gawd. With all the oh-em-jee-so-big portions of food and all the the cream that tops my sweets. There’s gonna be some controlling on my diet and a lot of walking, cause I’m hoping for a body transformation here. Turn my cottage cheese thighs muscly please. Wish me luck. Cause I NEED it.
I still feel like I'm living in a dream. At a point I thought that I would just wake up and everything would disappear.
But truth is, it doesn't.
Somebody pinch me.
Booya!
PS: People drink from the tap here. And it tastes sweet.
Feb 13, 2010
All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin
Its early morn
The taxis waitin
Hes blowin his horn
Already Im so lonesome
I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
Cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Theres so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
but I tell you now, they
dont mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back, Ill bring
your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
Cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
And close your eyes and
Ill be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I wont have to leave alone
About the times, That I
wont have to say
Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
Cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
But, Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
But I don't have a wedding ring (duh!).
And so many times I did not play around, because every time being with you,
It always meant something.
True story.
Labels: Mood swings
Just so you know, I've FINALLY got back my passport back, WITH the visa pasted on it.
SUHWEET :)
Anyway, because of this whole visa thing, the whole house has been so crazy the past few days. Which explains the 5 days of absence from blogging.
Hence, going straight to the point of what happened.
Quickies!
1. I went for a one day trip to KL with aunt, uncle, cousin. Shopping in One Utama.
Illustrating point no.1 - Bought the AWESOME scarf from British India I have been eyeing since last year's July (I think). It's on 70% discount. From a hell pricey Rm159.90 to a dirt cheap Rm47.50.
Gimme the high 5 people. It's a very lovely autumn orange colour. Which gives a very warm, cosy look. And, it's 100% wool. So, hope it really does carry out its purposes and not just some eye candy. AND, I had scones and marvellous chocolate cake topped with vanilla ice cream in Delicious, thanks to my aunt :)
2. Got into shopping for new year clothes a little. Nothing much and extravagant. I'm getting kinda tired of dolling up.
3. I did get my Hush Puppies Jeans which I love so much, and got my contacts already. Making new specs, expecting it to be done by 18th.
4. I've got my pair of casual shoes (Nike, all white with a baby blue Nike trademark) just today. After going to the new Jusco in melaka, then One Utama, then back to melaka's old Jusco, just to go back to the first store I went for shoe hunting. "Awesome"
So, that's ticked done on the list..................
5. Apart from shopping, I have already paid for my flight tickets. And, gotten a whole bunch of new information to process. Hoping not to miss any flights or get lost in air ports or camping in air ports. God, keep me safe and on time please.
6. Which brings me to the last and utmost important point. Flight date - 19th of February. Starting from KLIA- SG - Sydney - Wellington. Travel Time: 4.30pm
That's right guys, this babe's gonna fly high sooner than you think.
Which means I've gotta get my butt moving faster, there's still lots to do. Mostly shopping and packing. And collecting ang pau's. And getting my ass fatter. Drinking chinese tea. Eating butter cookies. And meeting up with friends. :D
Ciao ppl. It's running late. And this girl needs her sleep.
I'm getting too old.
Labels: Averages
Feb 8, 2010
I am on the hunt for new clothes.
I need shirts, T-shirts, long sleeves, vests, cardigans. You name it. Mostly stuff that can keep me warm.
I am also on the hunt for new shoes. Casual ones, preferably from Nike, or Adidas.
I currently have my Reebok's for sports, Crocs, Sandals, and Snowfly Boots which I'm planning to bring to New Zealand with me. Not bringing any heels or impractical shoes cause Wellington is a place that's kinda hard to walk in comfortably cause most of the time you can consider walking as hiking instead since it's so hilly all over.
So, that means 5 pairs for my feet??
I am also thinking of bringing 6 bags in total (excluding luggagges) for various occasions. Two backpacks, one laptop bag, 2 casual handbags and one formal handbag.
Honestly tell me, am I being ridiculous or what?
I need to buy my skin and hair care products too. Which I have no idea which brands to choose. Help me help me help me.
I ordered my contact lenses today. Biomedics.
I got 2 pairs of jeans today, and I vow to buy the pair of faded jeans I saw from Hush Puppies. I didn't get it cause I was running out of time.
People, I'll be going shopping in KL on Wednesday following my aunt. Hopefully, she doesn't mind dropping me in Sunway Pyramid instead cause I'm more familiar with the stuff there.
I want quick and easy shopping.
OMG, I seriously need to be a shopaholic for now.
And I seriously hope everything fits into the luggages and doesn't exceed the weight limit.
Dammit.
I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Labels: Averages
I looked ahead and saw that you are happy.
You are running with someone else, this journey of life that seems to take you further away from me.
The road leads us to separate places but will it bring us back together?
This hope in me, does it makes things better, or even sadder?
Maybe you didn't realise this but I would trade anything in the world that could let me be here with you and for you.
But things are not like that. It's only a fool's dream.
Time, will reveal itself.
So now, I'm just a bystander who loves you, who always have.
and Always will.
And I've told you before, so please.
Don't forget.
Labels: Mood swings
Feb 7, 2010
I just got back from the new Jusco.
Honestly.. It sucks....
Apparels, shoes and accessories are of the normal range. Like Voir, Padini, Nose, Vern's, bla bla bla, same old boring stuff.
The place is filled with shops that you can find anywhere and everywhere.
What's the point in having this shopping complex then? GRR
A serious case of pembaziran.
Dammit, was sooo hoping that Melaka would finally put a stop to fashion crime.
BTW, it was raining cats and dogs just now when I was in Jusco.
So I ran in the rain, with my laptop. Thought of getting an umbrella from Giordano since they sell it cheaper on rainy days but, nah. Didn't bring enough cash with me.
Got all soaked, and squeashy.
Thank goodness that my laptop bag comes with a rain cover.
Or else, you can kiss Baby Number One goodbye.
I love you lappie=)
True story.
Labels: Averages
Feb 5, 2010
On Second thoughts, pink words DO suit emo posts... it's just I need black backgrounds to go with it. So, from this day onwards, emo posts will be in pink, average posts will be in white. Any objections?
Anyway,
I'm spending too much time on my lappie again. I've finished Season 1 of HIMYM. And I'm gonna need about 2 days to get Season 2 done downloading.
What am I gonna do in the mean time???
I'm so lost without things to do on my lappie which means how lame my life is right now.
SIGHHH
I'm not playing much of The Sims3 cause it gets boring without the expansion pack (which I do have but it doesn't work).
BUMMER.
Wasting time, wasting time, wasting time.....................................................
I need to do some shopping but my current location doesn't call for it. HMMPH. I'm still throwing my tantrum on the issue of not allowed to go to Subang.
I really miss Yu Kee's Bak Kut Teh.
I really miss having a social life.
I really miss hanging out.
I really miss being anywhere else but Melaka.
Someone sweep me off my feet, making my heart leap.
Bring me to some place new, where all great adventures grew.
........
I'm talking crap.
Which is the cue to stop typing.
Good night ladies and gentlemen, thank you for reading this crappy post :)
Labels: Averages
I watched 17 episodes of How I Met Your Mother today.
WOW, that's kinda crazy. I'm not even having 2% on downloading season 2.
Well, today's weather was a killer. Hot and humid.
Which means it's almost Chinese New Yearrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm really behind schedule here.
No new clothes, no new shoes (Snowfly boots is definitely impractical for Malaysian weather, so, it's not counted!).
What am I going to do???
At first I thought that I wont be having CNY this year, because I was expecting to fly on the 12th of Feb, but since I'm not going to get my visa by then, no choice but to delay it.
Whoa, if I stuck to the first plan, it's only one week from now................................................
Scary much.
I have so little time left. And so much I wanna do!
Like, meeting friends, having farewells, giving toasts, hugs and goodbye stuff.
What's worse is Dad doesn't allow me to stay in subang overnight, if I go there, I come back on the same day.
How the heck am I going to fulfil my "before leaving everything behind" list?
Darn.
Someone put some magic dust on my Dad please.
I'll give you the biggest Thank You in the world!
Labels: Averages
Feb 3, 2010
I'm currently downloading How I Met Your Mother Season1.
Yeah I know, that's like 5 years ago punya story. But hey! it's not too late to start ya know :)
Anyway, because it's gonna take awhile to DL it finish, I'm gonna start watching it online first.
Which I am buffering right now.
I hate slow internet connections.
Anyway, Because of my Visa problem, I'm not gonna make it to the class dinner a.k.a my farewell and Raja's tomorrow.
Dang.
I want to be there of course! I really miss my classmates..
I have the biggest temptation to perform crazy stunts.
Like, running away from home for two days.
If only Dad wasn't the angry type of guy, I would have done it without any hesitation. =((((
It's so hot these days. ZZZ
I almost fell asleep while DRIVING cause hot weather makes me sleepy. DAMN, that's superbly dangerous.
Been driving the old Mazda that used to be my mom's car (now it's my bro's). It's really old, about 17 years? But it runs really much better than my mom's Myvii. Much more stable, the gear box is smoother.
The only really bad thing about it is the air condition kinda sucks and you'll literally burn your fingers from touching the steering wheel if you parked the car under the sun. No kidding.
Nevertheless, I love this old mean machine=)
Oh, and I got my haircut today! Nothing much, just that the bad ends are trimmed off, to my much relief. I protect my hair as if it has a life of its own. Cause when I was young, I had a head like a bush or tangled up wires. My hair was HORRIFYING. It only became much better when I was in high school after diligently caring for it.
Every time I go to a hairdresser, I would have something in mind to say to the stylist before he chops off my hair. Like, I want it wavy/not too short/not too many layers etc.
But once I get onto the chair, I am absolutely a mute. And just nod to almost whatever he suggests. (except if he wants to cut it SHORT, which is a BIG NO NO!)
I had hairdresser-phobia. REALLY. Because I used to be very embarrassed about my pretty much ugly hair, and knowing someone is gonna touch/examine/analyse my hair, this puts me in a very uncomfortable position that I would squirm in my chair. And feel very intimidated. Well,
I have no idea whether other people experience the same thing as me or not. Is it normal or it's just me?
So, time to kill. Watching How I Met Your Mother in hopes of making this sour face disappear.
All the best to me.
Labels: Averages
Something is lacking in my Visa. WTH
The medical report lacks signature from the Doctor.
DAMMIT.
DAMMIT.
F***!!!
Now I'm afraid of how I'm gonna get my visa done in time.
This is shit.
=(
Labels: Shit Happens
Nope, I did not bleach my skin.
As a matter of fact I made it darker, which of course, I'm talking about my blog. Silly. Decided to make my blog look dark...... A sign of emo-ness.
HAHA, maybe that's what I am, wouldn't you agree?
ANYWAY, my visa application will reach the desks of the Singaporean Visa Service Centre tomorrow morning.
I'm gonna spam alot of "please" right now:
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
PLEASE be ready on time.
I doubt this spamming does any good. XD
Anyway, I'm feeling much better now. The previous post was a serious piece of emo crap. Which was why I changed my blog template and font colour (pink back gorund and pink letters didnt look quite right for emo posts).
So...
Tomorrow I have a demanding assignment at the start of the day.
Which is to fetch my lil bro to school, 30 minutes away from my house. And to go jogging after that with my cousin.
It's now 1.47am and I have to wake up by 6.20am LATEST.
CRAP.
Sleep. NOW!
PS: After booking for an appointment at 2.30pm but waited till 6pm, I did not get my hair cut. DAMMIT. I promise I will get it cut later!!
Labels: Averages
Feb 2, 2010
Good morning kiddos. I just woke up for the second time today. Because I slept after the first waking up. And for the reason of making a call to New Zealand to ask them for the Summary of Deposit (which will complete the requirements of my Student Visa Application). They are 5 freaking hours ahead of us. As I'm typing right now, the clock has just striked 12pm and over there? It's 5pm, and they're already getting ready to pack their bags and leave the office, to their lovely homes, or into the arms of their lovely wives, or going back to that same room that they live alone in, back to their sad, sad life. Whatever it is.
ANYWAY, concentrate on MY life here.
I'm in the mood to blog now, cause I really need to pour out some shit from my brain. I want to talk to somebody but no one seems the right person now. So, whoever who might be reading this crap from me, let me tell you the dream I just had from the second sleep.
It's in a classroom. Accounts class, lecturer was the same as in my college days. I remember four ppl being there clearly. Myself, L, H and of course W.
The scene is familiar.
L sits with H, W and I sit together.
W is feeling jealous that he doesn't get to sit with L.
While, L and H look happily sitting together.
And myself? Same thing.
Same knowing of what is going on, same hurt, same scars.
Suddenly the scene changes.
W sits on the same chair with me, not side by side, but behind.
He hugged me, his arms around me. As if to say, he wants to forget about what we said last time, our arguments, the hurt he inflicted but never felt sorry.
To just be with me, for me, here and now.
I cried. All that I suffered for, All that I ever waited and hoped for. The light that seemed impossible then, is here finally.
I took his hands that were around me, and kissed it ever so gently. My eyes closed. In front of all of my classmates.
But then, I don't know why, he suddenly changes his mind, and left me, all alone.
When all hopes seem so high, it came crashing down, just one second later.
I don't know why I dreamt this. Because these days, I was doing pretty fine and made the decision not to get involved with him anymore. Because it's too cruel. And I should love myself more than the man who lied and never took the effort to care for me.
The part where he sat behind me and wrapped his arms around me, was real. It did happen. And alot of other things.
I'm not afraid of what people know. Or what they think of me.
Because I know that I never loved someone as much as I have loved him. And whatever I did, it was from the purest feelings that came from me.
No selfishness, no holding back. I gave all of my heart.
And he let it drown.
With my own tears.
Labels: Mood swings
Feb 1, 2010
I am getting tired easily. Maybe it's due to my irregular sleeping habits and lack of exercise. And yes, this means I feel so much fatter.
Dad's not been able to sleep well for the past week. And the reason why is cause he's SO excited in preparing for my departure to New Zealand. Honestly, he's more excited than me.
I'm not in the mood these days. Been having alot of blank moments lately. Brain's slowing down, it's shutting down. ZZZ
I shall find ways to entertain myself. But with what?
Anyone kind enough to cheer me up? =(
PS: Hoping to get a hair cut tommorow!!
Labels: Averages
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