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Jun 17, 2010
I'm still in my exam period. But seriously am not in the mood to study.
Today, I was thinking if I were to be interviewed for a scholarship to go to the top universities in UK, how was I going to sell myself. I am never good in advertising my abilities, and I always shy away when I get a compliment.
Questions I came up:
1# Why do you think you deserve this scholarship more than any other people?
Firstly, I would say my whole life is an improvement. Back when I was a primary school student, I was only but an average student with her very average results. I scored 3As and 4Bs, which was why I ended up in a very, probably even below average secondary school. I wanted to be in a school named St.Davids High School, but was rejected. All the very promising students flock there. As an evidence, one of them is now in Harvard.
So you see, since I was young, I have always wanted to be in a place of competition, amongst people with extravagant talent. In my PMR, my results were 7A's and 1C, C for my Chinese, which I never really liked the subject much. I was proud of myself but I know that I still lacked the feeling of achievement. I was competing with people who are only of my own level or below. For SPM, I got 6A1's, 4A2's, 2B3's. This is the best result of the whole school for the year. Even independently I see this as an ongoing improvement, I still was not satisfied.
Then I came to Taylors University College, where students, the great and the not so great came together in this prestigious education institution. The very same girl who went to Harvard from the same home town as me, was also in Taylors.
At first, I was struggling, because A levels ain't just a piece of cake like in SPM. And I have friends whom I admit are far more talented than I am. I was getting out of breath every time I try to run along side with them. But I pressed on, even though there were many stumbles, I still put my whole heart in my studies. No matter what distractions I came across, I still tried to deliver my very best. For AS, I scored an AAB. My friends got straight As, disheartened, I still pressed on. For my A2 trials, I failed for one of the toughest subject I ever encountered, Sociology. My peers know only how much knowledge, how much hard work I've put into this subject, and could not believe I could fail it during the trials. I didn't do very well for my other two subjects either. I was freaking out. Exams are only less than a month away.
The worst had to come, right before the actual exam, two of my bestest friends, who are the smartest people I know, who are my study partners, pulled out of the exam just a few days before my first A2 paper, Sociology. The reasons for this shocking decision were fear of not getting good grades due to lack of preparation and a lack of confidence.I spent a lot of time when there's no time left crying, and feeling afraid. My confidence was shaken as well, and had asked my dad whether I could pull out or not, but he made it firm that I must go through with what I had set my heart on, which is to finish my A levels.
Long story short, I did all my exams, a few months later when the results were released, it all came as a shock to me how well I did. I can only thank God how much He has supported me through. Despite of the many barriers that prevented me to perform my very best, I obtained a very respectable result of AAB, B for Sociology. My own Sociology lecturer was very shocked by my result, first because I only had a B during my AS, secondly, I had failed during the trials and being able to maintain a B in A2 is just, miraculous.
Now, why do I deserve the scholarship? Because what made me achieve what I have already achieved, did not solely depend on my natural talents. My friends had more talents than I am, but in the end, only I had survived the stress, the expectation and the absolute hardships all students have to face, which is fear.
I believe that my sense of maturity and responsibility was what carried me through. And of course by the grace of God. As stated previously, my whole life is an improvement, as I grow older, I become more mature, and since young I was taught to be the responsible one out of the 4 kids even though I was a third child. I take my duties seriously, even in my high school, I was the assistant head prefect, and I must say that even though the prefects that were in my school lacked attitude, and no one really sees themselves as a prefect. I, on the other hand, had seen being a prefect is more than just a name to it, but also a place of position, power, influence and control, of which was placed heavily upon me, as my actions were constantly being monitored by my peers and teachers. I was not the best student in school, meaning I'm no miss "goody two shoes". But I dare say that I was the most outstanding person, always present to fight for justice, and always believing in the right thing to do.
I am a fighter, a passionate person, and am responsible and mature. As I grow, I feel all the more responsible towards my studies, towards my parent's expectations on how much they believe in me, and to myself. I want to fight for a chance to break out of constricting circumstances, money is the issue now. I'm not afraid to say or face it. That's why I would really want to spread my wings to the fullest. As I had not during my A levels. I want to see how far I can go, because I know that if given the chance, I can do better than this. The greatest lesson to learn is to challenge yourself, not with other people. I've known only too well that independence is a very hard lesson to learn. So, it is a goal for me to be a person who would be able to self motivate when everything around me seems all wrong, when there's no pillar to hold on to any more.
This is the greatest challenge I want to face, instead of avoiding it as many others may have chosen because it's the easier way out, I wish to come out of it victoriously.
So that is why, I wish to be in a place where great opportunities lie ahead. So that I will learn to be fearless, realising my own capabilities, and look forward to further enhance my strong points.
Often, I would think that if I were instead a St. Davids high school student, would I be an even better person than I am today? The opportunities are definitely there, but what kind of person would St. Davids mould me into? Rather than my own high school.
Rejection has turned out for the worst and best for me.
And now, I feel that it's the right time, and my turn, to shine.
All I need, is a chance to realise that dream.
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I was thinking of coming up a second question but I realise that this post is already so long.
I was thinking of coming up a second question but I realise that this post is already so long.
So lol, do you think I'm still a person who's no good in selling herself?
PS: this demonstrates how much I'm so not in the mood to study, being in Victoria made me question what the hell am I doing here, and not some place better. But you know what? My life's not an end yet. And I would never have met and have experiences with so many wonderful people if I weren't in Wellington. Glory to God, I believe in His plans to bring me forward, wherever He wants me to go.
So, I should get back to studying soon =)
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