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4 years ago
May 3, 2010
I have to say,
That without God, I can do nothing.
Well, I think most of you who reads this would think that there are so many contradictory posts to my religious views.
But truthfully, I've only been waiting, challenging what God will do in my worst circumstances, and how willing I am to respond to Him.
This week was a real hard slap in the face. Like, literally. Not the part where humiliation takes place, but more of the pain and shock of the whole impact.
Maybe I should just say I was stabbed in the heart.
Well yeah then, I was stabbed. And Reality has bitten me with its most poisonous venom, splashed me the worst burning acid that I could take.
And with these scars, evidently, that were all there, I solely believe that during Church, it was healed, like a miracle.
It doesn't mean that I'm all fine with the whole situation, but I believe I will be fine despite of the facts that brought me down, because God will give me the perfect balm that my soul so needed it.
He liberated me of my shadows and sorrows. And I believe, will bring me to a place where I can fully experience such joy and love through other people, that it can only come from Him.
To L and W.
People whom I care for a lot despite of how much sadness it brings me at times.
I'm a very different person, I want to be a very different person.
The one who goes against all odds. The one that sometimes, it's not logical to give so much.
It's not conflicting at all to have hard feelings but at the same time being nice.
There are things that I can't change and I will have to live with it.
And hopefully that day comes soon enough where I am absolutely separate from my past.
Because no matter what happens,
The main key driver of everything will always be my love.
Which is the best thing that I can ever give.
I know I have been a real pain in the ass when I start losing trust for you guys.
It's because I'm imperfect as well, and that I give myself reasons to doubt.
Many times, I know what are my feelings, but it's just that I don't know what to do about it because I can't give myself up and be selfish at the same time. In short, it's all a dilemma. I try to do what's best but sometimes the best means alot of sacrifice and it honestly hurts.
And sometimes,the things I do is not interpreted the same way, so there are a lot of misleading facts. Which makes the whole action pointless and wasted.
If it means so much that I give my blessings,
then yeah, I will.
But just remember don't take it for granted that I'm always fine with everything as if I have no feelings and there wouldn't be any consequences.
But because pure love endures through everything, which is what I believe in and so, will hold on to it.
Lastly, I hope you guys would understand the way I function when it comes down to friendships.
Peace. Out.
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