If We Could Shout, Would You Do the Same?

It's from this song, Owl City- fireflies
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This is my first post.

Was supposed to wait till i get my own laptop. Then, i can blog anytime, anywhere. Can't wait! XD

Anyway, let's get back to today's topic.
Yesterday, i stayed awake again. recalling what I've been through for the past few months.
love.lust.happiness.hurt.betrayal.disappointment. and now, hoping for the impossible.
a pool of emotional shit i put myself into....
WHAT THE HELL....

I'm not going to tell you how much i love this person. or WHY.

But how did it happen? that's another story, maybe next time.

TODAY, woke up quite early(8-ish) because Dad wants to have breakfast and i'm obligated to go with him. i don't mind anyway.
~LALLALALALALA~
after that, Dad was up for some cooking sessions. you see, my Dad does the cooking in the house. he really likes it, but i guess he doesn't like to do it alone, which means, i'm dragged to be his assistant. During these valuable lessons of "Cooking with Dad", we bond indirectly. But today, i wasn't in the mood (because i'm still singing my emo song),hence i literally floated around the kitchen like a ghost (sorry dad). we made 2 types of pasta sauce. Green and orange-red. Dad says the green is good for seafood (which i don't know how he knows that) and red for red meat. we're having pasta tonight! =)

after dinner, im going out with a bunch of cousins i grew up with. all guys and a girl (me). it has always been like this, but im happy. somehow it feels cooler this way. i don't know where we're going today, but im glad to have a reason to get out of the house.
i need some fresh air. i need some space. a perfect getaway.
hopefully then, i won't think about you and the past.

Bittersweet memories...

LASTLY, "thinking about what had happened, reliving the moments, feeling everything again, but when I open my eyes, oops, you're not there."
A silent tear falls, a broken heart stabbed again.


BINGO.