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Sep 6, 2010
That was how my new Polish QUAN 111 lecturer pronounces "Constant".
And a lot of other things he said really funnily which I shouldn't really mention because I'll sound real racist.
First day of uni again after my two weeks break. I really wished I could turn back time, GAWD, i hate myself for not studying at all during my "such a long" holiday.
Not an ounce of knowledge bout Economics gained and I'm having a test on Thursday.
The past few days of weather has been really scary. After being in Wellington for 6 months only I understand what "Wellington is a very windy place" mean. I think it's a serious understatement.
Sarcastically, people would get blown over over here. We should conduct an experiment with one of the size zero models from the States.
INTERESTING.
VISUALIZE?
Anyway, cause of the earthquake the other day, before I went to class today, I actually read the "earthquake" part of the emergency what to do's when I was waiting for lift.
1. Stay away from windows and heavy objects.
2.Find shelter from solid objects.
3.Evacuate the building when the officer tells you to.
4.Extinguish fires. (DUH)
I have one more hour of class before I finish today's lectures and then almost religiously devote myself to my gym routine.
**Class starting now, the same old hag for INFO 101**
Aug 30, 2010
OKAY.
I'm really not in the mood to update my blog.
But I'm waiting for a video to buff. So.. I'm gonna keep it short but then not so sweet cause I'm too un-bothered to do that.
Been gym-ing quite a lot.
4 times 2 weeks ago.
5 times last week.
This week, 1 time but of course it's a Monday and I'm STILL counting.
There's a week left for the holidays, then I'll be busy doing assignments, catching up on Econs and stuff..
Sometimes I really wonder whether I should continue Econs as a major. HMM. God help me.
But I'm quite firm on Statistics, but that's just maybe because I've done zero research on my other option (Econometrics).
Slack Slack Slack.
The only thing I'm absolutely hard out at is going to the gym everyday, currently.
And also looking forward to Sundays. I love Church, I love God. And it's been awesome after the conference. I've seen so much more, grown so much more, experienced so much more. And also see others coming to God. Getting saved. ETC.
Ps. Sophie Barrett said
"We are/need to be more than nice people."
Why? Because we don't need Jesus to be nice, she said. Which is SO true.
Anyone can be nice. But not anyone CARRIES the grace and mercy and love that comes from God.
That said, is enough =)
**I'm really hungry.**
Aug 20, 2010
My blog's pretty dusty.
Sometimes I feel like deleting it.
Should I, should I not?
It's not about who read's it, but about how I can express myself without talking. Because I tend to suck in story telling. A proven and actual fact.
Plus, it's actually kinda fun for me to type alot.
Aug 12, 2010
You know what's so cool about this week?
Today is the start of Arise conference.
3 freaking days of rock-God-life impacting-cheaper gelatos and coffee(discounts).
Then there's another week more to mid term break (2 weeks of holiday/sheer joy/much needed rest/much needed time to catch up on my Econs).
Seriously, can my uni life get any more relaxing than this?
HMM, I don't know whether to appreciate or to complain here.
On one hand, it's fun, relaxing, and totally not stressful, the other hand, it's worrying cause come on, it's not primary school anymore?
Hearing from my friends back in malaysia getting screwed up by the tonnes of assignments and exams all the time makes me wonder whether I should pity them or myself.
Some things just can't be taken for granted ay?
Stuff that I want/should think about:
1.Student Exchange Programmes.
2.Getting an iPhone 4????? (my dad would kill me, lol)
3.Delete some people from my FB
4.Go to the gym more often.
5.Study harder.
6.Get a part time job.
7.Read the bible more (not kidding here).
8.I'm out of ideas.
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Sometimes I feel like I'm always fighting the same battle that drove me miles away.
I punched, only the reflection of myself through an array of mirrors.
Shards of glass, a thousand cuts, pierces me.
Hurting no one but myself, bleeding on the same spot.
Didn't you know when you break something, it will never be the same even after you fix it?
Damned, how could you be so careless?
Or maybe you're ignorant or selfish.
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PS:My one hour break is up. Time to go to class. FLY!
Aug 5, 2010
Pendulums- An apparatus consisting of an object mounted so that it swings freely under the influence of gravity.
I don't know why, I just feel like emphasizing the power in the phrase "swings freely under the influence of gravity".
Maybe it's some longing for freedom?
Because deep down, I still know that I am bound.
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I wish to disappear for awhile.
Tempting, tempted.
But I never found a place or a time where it seems safe enough to do so.
Sometimes I feel like as if I'm a ghost. A shapeless form?
And then sometimes I feel I'm haunted, especially in my dreams. Usually haunted by school buildings. My primary school, my high school. Weird eh?
Images come into my mind sometimes, some good, some bad, and some even suicidal.
......
SHIT.
I dreamed weird yesterday.
Like ultimately weird. Cause it made me pray after that.
This is going to sound childish.
Anyway, it's about me and L, we're like Bond girls or something trying to attract James Bond. With our talents/beauty and stuff.
L was in a beauty competition, and she won first prize. W was there as well playing his role as her bf. (I can't believe how this can still appear in my dream).
Of course, I got jealous because of her winning the competition/hurt cause of her being with W.
And then something happened and we were in a mansion. L was showing off her piano skills. And at the moment when I was almost invisible to Mr.Bond, I wrote poems (which was my talent in that dream). And uhm, Mr.Bond was somehow turned on by that, so he wanted me instead. Then L got jealous, and she tried to sabotage me.
I could still remember how her face looked liked, with very weird makeup on which did not cover the jealousy burning within her.
Gah, this is going no where.
Then there was another part, where I jumped off the cliff for my sister.
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It's so freaking weird.
What I prayed for was that I would not get jealous by her "success" in having W in the end and going to LSE. Basically, the things of the world and that I will not be fulfilled nor be satisfied by having love, friendships and possessions.
I prayed that it was God who fills me and makes me happy.
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I still think it's weird cause it was like maybe 2 in the morning? I prayed right after I woke up from that dream.
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This post is ultimately useless anyway, so, don's waste your time reading it.
This post is ultimately useless anyway, so, don's waste your time reading it.
Jul 29, 2010
I play a routine.
I get up early to get ready for uni.
Down my breakfast in 5 minutes (sometimes cereal or pieces of toast), trying not to choke.
Then I hike up the hill to attend my classes for the day, almost always punctual. This is for Monday to Friday.
Saturdays are mystery days. I have no idea what would come up on a Saturday. I can't recall any repeated Saturdays. Sometimes it's someone's birthday, or a pot luck, or a trip to somewhere out of town, escaping its busyness that would slowly drown me if I don't pause to breathe.
Sunday, I'm always always, and always busy. From morning till night. Church service in the morning/Dynamite if I'm on duty that day, then Sunday market/lunch. After that, I would rest at home for a couple of hours or so then back to church again for the evening service. Supper would be the next event, it lasts till 9pm++ depending on how long we stayed in the restaurant, chatting/laughing/waiting for our orders.
Sometimes I'm happy playing the same game all the time, for a month, two months, I can be so happy that you'll think there's something wrong about me. But then, I get tired and frustrated, and may throw a tantrum or sink into a depressed mode.
Sigh, growing up sure ain't easy.
The only time that I have for myself is actually on Wednesdays ( I don't have classes on that day). I could either be slacking the whole day. Or do something random, like cleaning the house/cook something out of the many recipes I've downloaded. Yesterday, my cooking adventure ended up with chicken coated with maple syrup and pecans, which would taste really good if only I had used boneless chicken breasts. And then I cooked tomato-based sauce-with-beef-meatballs-pasta for lunch, and even cooked extra for my friends. Then I signed up for the gym in uni with a friend. Worked out for real efforts of 40 minutes.
Give me a day where I'm totally free (meaning that I'm delaying my work). It can be the most boring day or the most random day it could be for the week.
Now that it's Thursday, I've got tonnes of work to do. Really a lot.
I ask myself, why the heck didn't I use my Wednesdays to get some work done?
Sigh, I need to smack my own head from time to time.
Jul 26, 2010
Schedule for the week.
Starting Monday- Frank's bday party, 6.30pm till God knows till wat hour.
- Quan 111 tutorial work to do
Tuesday- Get gloves and a binnie
Wednesday- Attempt to do assignment for Quan 102 and Quan 111
- Info 101 workshop work to do
Thursday- Quan 102 tutorial work to do.
Friday- After class, pack up my bags. I'm going on a ski trip for the weekend =D
Saturday- Have fun wetting my bum and get my fingers numb from the cold. Hopefully there'll be lots of snowball action.
Sunday- Back to Wellington. Sunday church service. Supper. Brush teeth. Sleep early
cause class starts at 9am on Mondays.
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Monday (August 2nd, two assignments due on the same day same time) hopefully my assignments are all done before I go for the ski trip.
Most Important event. Friday 6pm. Sam, a dear kiwi friend of mine is leaving for Japan for a year to teach English. I wouldn't be there to send him off, cause I'll be on my way to the snowy mountains.
I'll miss him alot.
I'm missing him already. =(
Ki wo tsukete itte kite.
(Take care on your way, and come back safe)
Jul 22, 2010
Borders hadn't given me a call for my application.
Screw them, I would be the best employee they could have.
Pifft and Sigh, I guess there's no way to work now.
I've given up applying for Whitcoulls. OMG, need 3 referees at least. Plus, it's so much harder to fill the forms in than my uni application.I'm not giving up hope, I'll apply for Borders again during summer.
Jul 20, 2010
I haven't been typing a decent post since forever.
It's like a stage that I haven't passed yet, everything is, so inconsistent. It's the same play/script, the very same theatre with the same props.
Familiar enough, maybe I could even close my eyes and still know where things are, or where they should be. BUT I keep falling/failing where I should have mastered by now.
Sigh, all the frustrations in life, ever present, but more prominent than its usual scale.
This annoys me to the maximum.
This really demonstrates how weak humans (or at least myself) are, or can be.
I realise this is going to get so depressing again.
I really do have a problem.
Now, Bittersweet Symphony is playing in my ears , and it's cheering me up abit already.
Again, I'm amazed by how music can affect my (and so many others) mood.
(Can I stop using the word "again"?)
It's a gorgeous sunny day despite the fact that it's still winter.
I'm signing off to seek some career advice. Apparently, I need some. But more importantly, I need God's hand.
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Why do I expect myself to be more perfect than I'm not?
Jul 12, 2010
WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLlll.
I failed one subject. Management 101.
SCREW IT. I never liked it, never liked the lecturers (except for one), and my tutor, and my tutorial class.
PFFT, no one imagined I would fail this subject, considering that my command of the English language is pretty awesome (by my standards) and im not stupid.
I'm really upset by the fact I have to repeat the whole ordeal of MGMT assignments, I swore to myself that if I had to search for another Maori article I would might as well be dead.
I loathe this subject, just too much.
This trimester, math rules! Yay for me, a horror to many?
I'm having two Quan subjects, Econs and Information system.
I can't wait to tackle some math questions. =)
PS: I may drop both Econs and HR as my major. In need of good advice
Jun 29, 2010
I dreamt a dream yesterday.
And I woke up, wanting to cry and say "Fuck" all over.
Jun 22, 2010
-4.55pm-
This is a moment of, well, I don't know actually.
I've just finished my exams and the first thing I did was not to go home but stay in the library instead (how astonishing, if I may say so)
Again, a lot of things happened, good and bad. Mostly good but the bad (maybe not bad but sad) really bad.
Firstly, good things are like being able to control my emotions better, and a better relationship with God.
Bad things, are Febrina, my dear and lovely life group leader and friend, left NZ (hopefully she comes back soon), and the isolation and hurt I felt due to L and W.
I realise that it's absolutely stupid to get hurt by people (not even friends) repeatedly over and over for the same reason. But truth is, I just can't help it and it's just the way it is.
And the whole reason for leaving Malaysia is evident as ever, sadly because that's where I spent my whole life till I came here.
Which is why I hate being reminded so much how the really little things can prevent my happiness today.
All my life, my only goal was to be happy.
To have a happy life, a happy family of my own (though I'm still too young to say that), a happy relationship with people. But the past two years had only, and only pushed me to the edge, and I fell from a very, very high cliff.
I really want simple things, simple enough for anyone to understand.
When I cry, I only need an understanding and caring friend. In difficult situations, a friend who would always choose the right thing to do, even if it means sacrificing one's self.
Because I would also do the same. My word is as good as a promise.
It's really hard to find a BFF.
Maybe that's why Paris Hilton is making money out of her "Paris Hilton's My New BFF" show on MTV (I still think it's a stupid show btw).
The days, holidays, two weeks of freedom, but what lays ahead?
I figure I have lots of novels to read (don't discriminate the way I spend my time, in fact, I am very happy READING). Other than that, I think the boys are planning a skiing trip. Need to ask Daddy to fund me though.
The triangle of money, friendship and love. It's such a cliché.
Sometimes when I find myself get caught up in this spider web, I just want to rebel. REBEL AS HARD AS I CAN.
Which explains the need for a punching bag (I've said this many times before, sigh).
Hint, hint anyone? My birthday's 26th of December, plenty of time to save up for my Christmas combined birthday present.
With this sudden erupt to an end. I need a breather. Away I go, off to home, I'm hungry, I'm a bit emo.
Oh yeah, I almost forgot that I'm supposed to hand in my resume to work in Borders. Typical me, cross your fingers, I really want to work in a book store. =)
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Because it seems impossible for me to deny its existence that would cause me sudden pains in my chest, I choose to bury it as deep as possible. With no intentions to dig it up again.
Never to reoccur, I'll let it turn to dust and soon itself, turns to nothing.
I'll do whatever it takes, just to gain back my dearly missed days. Being happy.
The reason why I keep repeating my emo situations for the same reason is obviously because I still care for the people who are concerned. Even though I've said my good byes but it's difficult to part, because I'm just not like that.
I can't throw away feelings.
But at one point, I really hope someone will throw it away for me, because I just can't do it. But, because I am forced to, and am forcing myself. I need help. I hope it comes soon.
Jun 19, 2010
I need some distraction.
But I'm having an exam in 4 hours.
And I've not finished studying.
Jun 17, 2010
I'm still in my exam period. But seriously am not in the mood to study.
Today, I was thinking if I were to be interviewed for a scholarship to go to the top universities in UK, how was I going to sell myself. I am never good in advertising my abilities, and I always shy away when I get a compliment.
Questions I came up:
1# Why do you think you deserve this scholarship more than any other people?
Firstly, I would say my whole life is an improvement. Back when I was a primary school student, I was only but an average student with her very average results. I scored 3As and 4Bs, which was why I ended up in a very, probably even below average secondary school. I wanted to be in a school named St.Davids High School, but was rejected. All the very promising students flock there. As an evidence, one of them is now in Harvard.
So you see, since I was young, I have always wanted to be in a place of competition, amongst people with extravagant talent. In my PMR, my results were 7A's and 1C, C for my Chinese, which I never really liked the subject much. I was proud of myself but I know that I still lacked the feeling of achievement. I was competing with people who are only of my own level or below. For SPM, I got 6A1's, 4A2's, 2B3's. This is the best result of the whole school for the year. Even independently I see this as an ongoing improvement, I still was not satisfied.
Then I came to Taylors University College, where students, the great and the not so great came together in this prestigious education institution. The very same girl who went to Harvard from the same home town as me, was also in Taylors.
At first, I was struggling, because A levels ain't just a piece of cake like in SPM. And I have friends whom I admit are far more talented than I am. I was getting out of breath every time I try to run along side with them. But I pressed on, even though there were many stumbles, I still put my whole heart in my studies. No matter what distractions I came across, I still tried to deliver my very best. For AS, I scored an AAB. My friends got straight As, disheartened, I still pressed on. For my A2 trials, I failed for one of the toughest subject I ever encountered, Sociology. My peers know only how much knowledge, how much hard work I've put into this subject, and could not believe I could fail it during the trials. I didn't do very well for my other two subjects either. I was freaking out. Exams are only less than a month away.
The worst had to come, right before the actual exam, two of my bestest friends, who are the smartest people I know, who are my study partners, pulled out of the exam just a few days before my first A2 paper, Sociology. The reasons for this shocking decision were fear of not getting good grades due to lack of preparation and a lack of confidence.I spent a lot of time when there's no time left crying, and feeling afraid. My confidence was shaken as well, and had asked my dad whether I could pull out or not, but he made it firm that I must go through with what I had set my heart on, which is to finish my A levels.
Long story short, I did all my exams, a few months later when the results were released, it all came as a shock to me how well I did. I can only thank God how much He has supported me through. Despite of the many barriers that prevented me to perform my very best, I obtained a very respectable result of AAB, B for Sociology. My own Sociology lecturer was very shocked by my result, first because I only had a B during my AS, secondly, I had failed during the trials and being able to maintain a B in A2 is just, miraculous.
Now, why do I deserve the scholarship? Because what made me achieve what I have already achieved, did not solely depend on my natural talents. My friends had more talents than I am, but in the end, only I had survived the stress, the expectation and the absolute hardships all students have to face, which is fear.
I believe that my sense of maturity and responsibility was what carried me through. And of course by the grace of God. As stated previously, my whole life is an improvement, as I grow older, I become more mature, and since young I was taught to be the responsible one out of the 4 kids even though I was a third child. I take my duties seriously, even in my high school, I was the assistant head prefect, and I must say that even though the prefects that were in my school lacked attitude, and no one really sees themselves as a prefect. I, on the other hand, had seen being a prefect is more than just a name to it, but also a place of position, power, influence and control, of which was placed heavily upon me, as my actions were constantly being monitored by my peers and teachers. I was not the best student in school, meaning I'm no miss "goody two shoes". But I dare say that I was the most outstanding person, always present to fight for justice, and always believing in the right thing to do.
I am a fighter, a passionate person, and am responsible and mature. As I grow, I feel all the more responsible towards my studies, towards my parent's expectations on how much they believe in me, and to myself. I want to fight for a chance to break out of constricting circumstances, money is the issue now. I'm not afraid to say or face it. That's why I would really want to spread my wings to the fullest. As I had not during my A levels. I want to see how far I can go, because I know that if given the chance, I can do better than this. The greatest lesson to learn is to challenge yourself, not with other people. I've known only too well that independence is a very hard lesson to learn. So, it is a goal for me to be a person who would be able to self motivate when everything around me seems all wrong, when there's no pillar to hold on to any more.
This is the greatest challenge I want to face, instead of avoiding it as many others may have chosen because it's the easier way out, I wish to come out of it victoriously.
So that is why, I wish to be in a place where great opportunities lie ahead. So that I will learn to be fearless, realising my own capabilities, and look forward to further enhance my strong points.
Often, I would think that if I were instead a St. Davids high school student, would I be an even better person than I am today? The opportunities are definitely there, but what kind of person would St. Davids mould me into? Rather than my own high school.
Rejection has turned out for the worst and best for me.
And now, I feel that it's the right time, and my turn, to shine.
All I need, is a chance to realise that dream.
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I was thinking of coming up a second question but I realise that this post is already so long.
I was thinking of coming up a second question but I realise that this post is already so long.
So lol, do you think I'm still a person who's no good in selling herself?
PS: this demonstrates how much I'm so not in the mood to study, being in Victoria made me question what the hell am I doing here, and not some place better. But you know what? My life's not an end yet. And I would never have met and have experiences with so many wonderful people if I weren't in Wellington. Glory to God, I believe in His plans to bring me forward, wherever He wants me to go.
So, I should get back to studying soon =)
Jun 13, 2010
I feel so sorry for my blog because I've been neglecting it for so long when it needed much attention from me.
Sigh.
Exam starts in two days! And I stil have not done much preparation.
My attitude towards studying is getting to a point where I start worrying for myself.
PS: For the past two weeks, I bought in total of 6 new novels. And they're MASSIVE. Oh boy, I should really be reading my text books instead. =(
Jun 4, 2010
The title should be familiar to everyone of you guys who had a childhood influenced with a lot of Disney movies. This is from Annie, one of my all time favourites.
Last week was one of the worst weeks so far in NZ, it rained EVERYDAY. Gosh, it really becomes so depressing when it's all dark and gloomy. Not to mention wet and slimy, Urghh.
But this week, the weather was tamed, howling winds locked up somewhere, no one getting blown over.
YAY, it was and still is a beautiful week~!
And to add on to my excitement, study break starts now (which also has a downside to it cause this means exams are just around the corner). Meaning I can sleep late and stay in bed as long as I think it's still appropriate to laze around.
I'm gonna do some roller skating tomorrow.
This is really awesome =)
A lot of crashing and falling to do (as part of learning to skate for the first time).
Cross my fingers, I don't want to have too many bruises.
CHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOIIIICE, say it like how the kiwi's does it.
From "ANNIE", Tomorrow
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun!
Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none!
When I'm stuck a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Say,
Oh!
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow! Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!
You're always
A day
A way!
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun!
Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none!
When I'm stuck a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Say,
Oh!
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow! Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!
You're always
A day
A way!
Jun 3, 2010
I may have acquired some weird taste in music.
Yay. lol
Guess I won't be replaying Fix You when I'm studying now.
Jun 1, 2010
I just had a few minutes with W.
Well, mostly it's about reasoning and arguing about why I broke off with L.
I repeated to W things that I wished someone would have told me when I was confused last year.
I concluded that no matter how much I love someone, the right way is always the best way.
The right thing should trump over my heart's desire.
Because what I desired, was what that was killing me softly, and I was willing to be in that place for a long time.
It went on for so long, because all matters was how much I love him, and how much I know I'm willing to sacrifice for him, always waiting for the end of the tunnel, where the light of hope would come eventually, as I believed.
But you know, not all tunnels have an opening on the other side.
And sooner or later, disappointed, you'll find a dead end instead.
So, the quicker you turn back, the faster you'll get back into the light of day.
I hope that I won't go back to the same dead end tunnel, getting disappointed all over.
Because unless God equipped me with a golden hammer to break through that darned, hard and cold brick-layered wall, I would never ever go to the other side of the the tunnel, no matter how much I claw my way through desperately in despair, finally giving up when all my energy is wasted. And a pool of tears gathers at my feet from all the crying I will do.
I told W, that I don't want to live in his shadow, and I don't want to see him living in L's shadow. But he doesn't see it that he is that.
Maybe I'm wrong or maybe I'm right. Time will tell, hopefully everything will be alright.
And for me, I want to look for new opportunities, most importantly, open up myself to it.
I learnt that, sometimes, it's hard to make a choice out of the love you have for yourself, than for other people. Because your heart's desire, or your reason for loving someone else may not be the best thing for your own good, and may even lead you to destruction.
God commanded us, love thy neighbour as yourselves.
And I also believe that out of loving my neighbours, I have to learn to love myself first. And from there, true love will come out of me for other people.
Now, I can really say that I'm glad to leave behind a lot of things.
Stupid past, Bon voyage.
May 26, 2010
I have approximately 3 weeks before my finals for this trimester.
Time flies really fast eh? But for those of you (you know who you are), who are still dying, waiting to get into uni, time seems to be your worst enemy, because no matter how much you curse it, it will never arrive a second faster, or a second later.
Now that I feel much calmer after the week's storm, I'm starting to get back my focus on more important things, things that I SHOULD worry about i.e. exams and current consumption of food (increased portions are creeping me out even though I know I'm losing weight), instead of things I shouldn't and can't do anything about i.e. (Erm, STUFF, you know, back in M'sia).
GAWD, I think I would be the most boring person to deal with if I ever were to be absolutely honest about myself (feelings) to other people, instead of to my blogs. When someone asks me a "How are you?" question, I would say 97 times out of 100 that "I'm okay", or "Not too bad" and 90 out of the 97 times I would be lying. Does this makes things sound ridiculous?
But basically, I don't think ever anyone would tell them "I had a bad day, because... bla bla bla (the story continues varying from people to people)" We almost NEVER say things are bad (or is it just me?).
Err, I need to make myself do something better other than talking to myself.
May 24, 2010
This has always been my emo song. When I feel hopeless in situations that I don't need to describe anymore. I think you guys are over familiar with the only thing that could drag me back to the emo corner. Anyway.
Here goes.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...
Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...
Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
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I love this band. They're ingenious.
PS: Don't worry, I won't be having this song as the first song in my playlist for long. I reckon it's too emo for any reader can take.
May 21, 2010
Shit. It's Effing cold right now.
Plus it's raining with 61/kmh gusts of wind.
GAWD. I hate winter (but it's only mid autumn right now) but I love snow (I think so even though I've never seen snow) (which concludes I'm weird).
But anyway, tonight's a war in the kitchen. Invited friends over for dinner.
I'm supposed to go get some groceries for dinner later but with this cold weather, it just makes me want to cook myself instead. So that I'll be warm, get it?
SHIT. I'll just freeze my ass off.
It's only a matter of sooner or later.
Ciao.
May 17, 2010
I wonder how many times I claim myself to be murdered.
HMM.
Well, I know it's been a really long time since I actually talk about what's going on in NZ rather than just unloading a bag of emo crap.
I've been extremely busy for the past 3 weeks. I had exams, and then my MGMT assignment came another round for a killing spree. Sigh.
Now that I survived this whole ordeal (handed in my assignment 9 minutes before the deadline), I feel as though I've aged alot.
The frustration of changing my article 3 times, the rush of reading through materials, stress from cramming information , the whole bag of 250grams of multi grain sour cream and chives chips which were absolutely addicting that I consumed in a couple of hours, which made me damn worried about my excessive salt intake, the feeling is as if somebody is stretching my body in all of its corners at the same time, in different directions, opposing directions.
URGHH, I hope I don't start getting wrinkles at this age.
I was so bored with myself in the midst of rushing to finish my damn assignment. Became so distracted that I start doing stupid things.
Evidence of stupidity (and a mixture of boredom and insanity):
Funny face 1
Normal, functioning face
Exaggerating my small eyes, complimented by my excessively pouty lips
The "WHAT???????????????????????????" face- Favourite picture of all. Which is now my FB display pic.
My face would like like this if i say "TOOT, TOOT, TOOT..."
The "Stun you with my beautiful face" face. Haha. As if.
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I have funny ways to entertain myself.
BTW, Hau's parents came to Wellington all the way from home.
Had great food, and time together with relatives the past couple of days, and still counting.
Awesome time begins this week. ;)
Now get back to what you're supposed to do. Whatever it is.
I'm gonna start procrastinating again. And you're not allowed to imitate me.
PS: I bought a pair of heels, two dresses, and a belt to celebrate my freedom and to welcome sanity into my being again. Will definitely post some pics on it later when I start doing stupid things next time =)
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